Well, here we are again. It’s the middle of the night. Well, not quite. It’s 10:11pm, to be exact. I think I do my best writing in the middle of the night. I know I write better when it’s dark. I have a thing with the dark. It’s easier for me to open up to people in the dark, when they can’t see my face. I feel secure and protected by the blanket of limited visibility. The odd thing is that I’m afraid of the dark. Not all the time, but there are times I’ll be walking around my apartment and I’ll be so sure someone is in there and I’ll be too scared to move. When I was married, Caleb would sometimes check out the entire house before he left to go have a boy’s night so that I would feel safe while he was gone. That helped, because he was sometimes gone the entire weekend. Having a dog helped, too. I miss Kadie. She is such a sweet dog. Destructive at times, but very sweet. She’d curl up on the floor in front of the couch and every time I moved she would get all excited. When I’d go to bed, she’d lay on the rug by the foot of the bed and periodically would walk over to the side of the bed and lick my hand before going back to her rug. I miss Kadie a lot. Which is funny because I’m not a dog person. Well, scratch that. I’m not a large dog person. I like smaller and medium-sized dogs. Big dogs make me nervous.

Oy. I don’t want to go to work tomorrow. I so want a vacation! Technically, I have the 21st of May off, but I don’t know if I’m going to take it. Jill, Nate, Jared and I were supposed to go to Disneyland that weekend, but Jill’s son is graduating that weekend, so we’re having to reschedule. We’ve been throwing around two weekends in June, two in July and one in August. And then there’s my family reunion over the Fourth of July weekend that I want to go to. Camping at Mt Trumbell for three days. That will be fun! I just need to ask for it. Lol. I’m always afraid to ask my boss for time off because I’m afraid she’ll say no. Not that it would change much, but I’ve had a few jobs where if you ask for too much time off they would get upset. I don’t really ask for time off, though. I took a day and a half off at Thanksgiving and two and a half days off at Christmas. I haven’t even taken a full sick day. I’ve only left sick from work once. Part of the reason I go to work even when I’m not feeling well is that there isn’t anyone else to do my job. Well, they hired that new lady a couple weeks ago, but she doesn’t even know a quarter of the stuff yet, so she’s not a ton of help at the moment. She’s getting a little better, though, so hopefully she’ll start learning more soon. But that’s just the copying. There isn’t any backup for the courthouse at all. One of the guys went with me once, so he knows where to go, but he doesn’t really know what to take where and what he’s supposed to do with it when he gets it there. So, I really can’t get sick. Man, if I ever die, they’re kinda screwed. Lol. I guess I should start making detailed notes on the courthouse. I have detailed step-by-step notes on most of the things I copy, so I’ll just have to do that with the courthouse. Oy. That’s going to be a serious pain in the butt. There’s so many little things to do and remember. *sigh* I guess tomorrow’s a good day to get started on that.

I’m getting really tired, so I should go to bed. I actually finished a blog! Yay! Lol. I guess I’m making progress.