Lately I’ve been having a little trouble writing. I was so excited about my story idea back when I thought about it, but the more I tell people about it and the more I try to come up with plot ideas, the sillier it seems to me. I don’t know what it is, but it just really seems like a dumb idea now.
I’m thinking I’m just going through a lack of self-confidence moment and that I need to just work through it, but it’s hard. It’s really not easy to have doubts about yourself and your abilities and just push through it. I know people do it all the time, I’m just saying it’s not easy. I want to push through this. I’ve wanted to be a writer ever since I first discovered books. Books are fascinating and magical and I want to be a part of that. I want to contribute to the universe of make-believe and endless possibilities.
The thought that crosses my mind is that I also want to contribute to the delinquency of minors. Haha. The reason I say that is because when I was a kid, I was that kid who read books by flashlight under the sheets or I would get as close to the window as possible so I could use the street light outside as my book light. Mom was constantly coming in and taking books and flashlights away from me. Lol. In school, is get my work done as fast as possible (or not at all……..) so I could get back to my book.
That is what I want to do. I want to inspire kids with such a love of reading that they want to do it all the time. So many kids bypass books for video games, tv shows, movies or some electronic gadget. It really is sad.
You know, maybe I should be a teacher instead of a writer. Lol. A story can be the best ever written, but unless the person has a desire to explore the pages, the best book ever written will mold and decay, lost and abandoned.
Well, my break time is up. Maybe it’s hit being sick for so long that is making me down on myself. Whatever it is, I want to get through it. I will get through it. Just give me some time.