I seem to be having a hard time writing lately. The past few days, I just haven’t really wanted to post on here. I’ve thought about it, I just haven’t felt like actually doing it. I just don’t really know what to write. I sit down to write and nothing comes out. It’s not like I haven’t done anything worth writing. I just have some kind of mental block at the moment where I just don’t want to write. Which is why I’m doing this right now. Just writing random stuff to see if anything comes out.
Life has kinda been like that lately. I just haven’t really felt like doing anything. I skipped the gym today and didn’t really care. Before, I would feel so guilty and like my whole day was messed up because I didn’t go. In a way, that’s a good thing, but it’s also a bad thing. I need to get my routine back. Part of it is that these past few weeks have been crazy and hectic and last week was just full of stress.
I’ve just been sitting here the past few minutes, just staring at my keyboard and thinking about last week. I think, aside from the stress, I feel a little bit of betrayal and letdown. It just really sucks to trust someone and feel like they have your back only to have them stab you in it. And also to have them tell you you’re not worth what you think you are. And to blame you for someone else’s actions. And then to snub you and publicly ridicule you. Last week was just a really hard week. I’m trying to get over it and trying to let it go. It’s a little hard sometimes, though. But I guess this whole experience will just make me stronger. What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, right? Well, I’m not dead yet, so I must be stronger!
On a happier note, I made cookies tonight! I actually did feel like baking today, so I came home and looked up some cookie recipes. I picked two that I wanted to make, but when I went to Wal-Mart, I forgot the peanut butter (this is what happens when you are talking to a good friend on the phone and aren’t paying attention to the shopping list), so I couldn’t make one of them. I was going to make spiced pumpkin chocolate chip glazed cookies and chocolate peanut butter bars, but I just made the cookies. Good thing because it’s just about 9:00 and I just finished glazing the last of the cookies. The recipe made 58 cookies, but I kinda ate 5 and my neighbor ate 3. lol. They are sooooooooooooooo good! I’ve never made these before and they turned out great! I’m so excited! I can’t wait to get them to work tomorrow and let people try them.
Speaking of which, I should probably go to bed. I was having fun adding pictures to this. lol. I guess this is what happens when I discover how to add pictures and slide shows. haha. I figured it out a few days ago, I just haven’t finished that blog yet. It’s the blog for the 30 Day Book Challenge that I’m failing miserably at. I started Day 1, which is to write about my favorite book, I just haven’t finished it yet. I added a couple pictures, I just am trying to finish the synopsis of the book. I’ll get around to finishing it one of these days. I just need a little more time in the day………………..
With that being said, I’m going to head off now. Time to get some sleep for more craziness tomorrow. Please pray that things at my office calm down. Good night, everyone.